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July 09 In the unknownIn the unknown I am alone and afraid
Standing with neither sword nor shield
My spirit forsaken
My hope deflated
My love unrequited
My life is bereft of the Goddess' love
I interviewed for a job today and was the lead candidate
Salary was negotiated and benefits explained to me
Systems were discussed and
operations were explained...
I felt I would be offered the job:
until my driving record was asked about
This is the 2nd job I have not secured because
of my driving record.
I am working hard to stay out of self-pity
I am looking at being enough
My pain is frightening me
My solutions are inadequate
All of this changed in a single day
My God has abandoned me
I am not enough
I can not make it
I am having trouble with my personal relationships
I am prey to misery
I can't make a living
I feel useless
I am in fear
I am unhappy
I can't seem to be of real help to others
Why can I not feel love today?
July 08 EmergingI'm just coming out of a place
It was a dark and frightening place
To enter into the unknown
A place where my life feels
Worse than it truly is
I am simply not getting my way
Is it not time for me?
I wish it was
I miss my little eden
I truly do
I fear for the worst
I feel alone and forsaken
Touching but not loving
Loving but no touching
No loving
No kissing
I miss her so very much July 04 4th of JulyHappy birthday USA
Today
I feel no freedom
My spirit
is in the wilderness
Every time I turn around I make a mess of things
My ex-lover was at the picnic I attended today
her daughter misses me
asked me to fireworks
I wanted nothing more than to be with her and her Mother.
I declined
knowing I could not act on my love
My heart aches June 26 ThunderstormsI've been applying for jobs for a month now
Been on a few interviews
Just can't get a job to save my butt
My friend who just broke my heart
says she misses the confident Jimmy
I do too...
I'm stressing real bad
My bills are piling up.
I went to probation the other day
have to do a week of breathilizers
to prove I'm sober
Alcohol therapy started last week
I couldn't go - broke
I spent the last two years feeling sorry for myself
I refuse to do it again
Goddess help me
June 19 My Spring & Summer RomanceMy friend was back.
We spent a few glorious days together...
I asked for too much
She is incapable of more
Now she is gone
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Suewrote:
June 2
La Belle Rêveuse ..wrote:
![]() Have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago?
You are for me a real friend Jim You touched my soul with being yourself
Have a nice tuesday
Kiss La Belle Rêveuse
Apr. 28
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Apr. 3
ღ♥ღViViღ♥ღwrote:
I wish you a good new WEEK...
A gente sempre destrói aquilo que mais ama
We always destroys what he
Mar. 22
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